Everything is going so wrong.
The start of my New Year has not gone the way I wanted it to and I have already messed a lot of things up.
Even at the end of the holidays I still have no motivation to do any work and school starts back tomorrow. This has me doubting whether things are ever going to get better. I have so much work to do for tomorrow but I just can’t bring myself to do it.
I need to go back on medication again. Why did they take me off it? Why can’t they find answers sooner? I need answers. I need medication. I need to numb this ache, I need motivation.
At least returning to school will get me back in a routine rather than staying in bed every day and not bothering to get dressed. However it does mean I have to walk around school, bumping into people who thoroughly dislike me and just being too scared in general to do anything.
I wish I could concentrate on working.
I’m too sad to do anything.
I can’t do anything.
This is me signing off.