Monday Night Blues

Guess who’s drunk on a Monday night because they are failing yet again to complete their mass amount of essays? This girl, so sorry if things are a bit all over the place, thank god for autocorrect. A doctor at CAMHS phoned my mother last week and told her that they think they didn’t diagnose […]

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It’s been about a week since I last posted I know and I’m sorry about that. I’ve been trying to get a hold of everything that’s been happening. For the first few days after being hospitalised I was so happy for no reason and I told everyone about how happy I was. Now I feel […]

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Many of you may have already heard that I’m in hospital at the moment and yes, it’s true.  I took an overdose at around half 7 last night in Banstead park. There was something strong inside me that just didn’t want to live anymore and I had been planning it for a few days prior […]

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Increased Dosage

Slight Trigger Warning   I had an appointment with the CAMHS doctor on Thursday afternoon where we spoke about the effects of Quetiapine so far. I explained that I hadn’t really noticed an effect on my mood and I had experienced only minor side effects and the drowsiness had worn off meaning that it was […]

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Sexual Assault

I don’t really know how to talk about this without giving too much away about the person and causing me the least hurt. I talk about Sexual Assault quite a bit mainly in a vague way as I don’t think I’ll ever be ready to talk about it as it is ongoing. I’m not good […]

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Amazing Mood

Guess who is in an amazing mood? THIS GIRL. I feel so powerful like I can take anything that is thrown at me so anyone trying to piss me off today better back off. I know it probably won’t last long but right now I don’t even care. I have a strong feeling it is […]

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I haven’t updated all week so I’m sorry for that. I’ve been having such a horrible week so far and it doesn’t look like it is going to get better any time soon. I’ve done loads of indescribably awful things to myself and I have a red raw throat from smoking constantly the past three […]

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